I'm trying my best to write again. Because ever since February of this year (to think that I haven't written anything in here either) I've suddenly stopped writing. Even the two manuscripts I am writing (for publishing), I also stopped writing. To think that the stories are just written in one of my journals and all I have to do is write it on the computer, revise/tweak it a bit, well most of it (just as long as it reaches their standard which is at least ten chapters and 23,000-24,000 words all in all) before passing it to the famous Tagalog pocketbook company (Precious Hearts Romances). But now May is almost near yet I haven't even touched my journal for reference in one of my manuscript.
Sigh, even now it's hard for me to think on what to write on this blog. And it's freaking 7 lines! ... now what? I'm typing words but it seems not right. Keep on deleting them... I wish I would feel the urge to write again. I miss writing poems. Maybe I needed an inspiration? But I've had inspiration before (well that's after my... hmm I'm thinking of the right words to write... fiasco moment of my life (?)... maybe I'll settle with that) and it did not work. Maybe I ought to be in love to be able to write my feelings again. Because when I was in love, I have written quite a lot of poems about my feelings. But I'm still enjoying the feeling of not being in love at this moment. Because I wanted to have time to love myself again before I fall in love again.
So when I find myself eager to write again the first thing I'll do is write on my manuscripts then maybe I'll write more on this blog in the future. This is it for now.
